what would you think
of me?
thing is
i really would never because
i know better than to
subject myself to vulnerability
and judgement.
yet
somedays like today
i wish i could just let go
of all my frustrations,
insecurities,and all those
ugly but very human feelings.
it is always very difficult to
be here looking at all of you
and witnessing
how there are so many ways for
life to be close to perfect,
and yet
so many more ways for it not to be.
mostly, im tired.
when i was younger,
i always thought i would be
one of those who would
float quite gracefully into adulthood.
then i became this tragedy.
this is a very 14 year old thing to say
and
i know this is not true but
i wish i had your perfect life.
11:39 PM